My Captain

Just got back from spending a couple of hours in the 24/7 prayer room at church. The biggest thing i got from it was the sense of intimacy. I felt God's presence instantly. I was kinda expecting it because as Katy drove me to church for my 10pm slot on the way home from Amber's barbeque, I felt God's presence in huge way as i gazed out over the rolling hills and the pink sunset and i absolutely couldn't wait to get in that room and be on my own with him. As soon as i got there he just pulled me straight into his arms and asked me to adore him and then to bring my petitions to him. I prayed a lot about cell. I feel confident that, as a church, we will see a lot of fruit from the prayers lifted up to God in the prayer room.

It's been a few weeks since i last felt excited about Jesus like i have in the last few days and i'm loving it :) This has come from a revelation of my Father's heart. My whole YEAR has been about this and i finally got it (on the same night as the My Jesus My Lifeline post): is God's heart good? Yes! There is a difference between "God is good to me" and "God IS good", because the first really means "God does good things". People who do good things also do bad things. Their goodness isn't guaranteed. But God IS good - he has a good heart.

This is what i have always desired God to be, but perhaps i have seen him as a man like all my other men, who often did good to me but ultimately whose heart was not completely for me. Now i know that God's heart is for me: it is won over, he loves me, he is besotted with me and will never give up on me. His heart is good. I can trust him because his heart remains good forever, despite me. Now i can trust him to be my Captain. He's wild, to be sure, but as the beavers said of Aslan: he's not safe but he is good. Because i know he is good, i will follow him wherever he leads me.